The love I possess for my husband is difficult to depict just right. It is even difficult at times to portray to him the earnest love I carry. Endearment for him is something I feel immensely. It is a good kind of love, a love that you want to cling to. I have often done just that in our relationship. I have, before, gripped our earthly love as if it were my last breath.
I know I am to love as Christ has loved me, and I know He loves me immeasurably. With that being said, when I hold earthly love up to this standard only God can meet I tend to expect more than what can be given, either of myself or of my husband. In particular, I may find myself seeking for either of us to fill voids that are not ours to plenish. That can leave us hungering for the type of love only Christ can offer.
Another thing I have to be watchful in is loving my husband over Jesus. I can quite mindlessly be enamored by my marriage if the situation before me allows. I may go off into a wondrous dreamland of aspiring romance and breathtaking devotion, forgetting the reality around me. And while there may be no harm in that, I have to remember where my loyalties lie. I shall love my husband as myself, but I am to love the Lord my God with all my heart, all my soul, and all my mind [Matt. 22:37]. My endless devotion belongs to Jesus. This brings me to the book of Luke.
Luke 14:26 If anyone comes to me and does not hate father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters – yes, even their own life – such a person can not be my disciple.
If Jesus called for me to leave my family today as He did the disciples, would I be able to do it? That tender adoration I feel for my husband, do I feel that in multiplication for my Savior? Could I put aside all of that emotion I have invested in my marriage to give it all to Jesus’s calling? Could I?
Thankfully I do feel my intended mission field is my family, but I must always be careful to love Jesus, to seek Jesus, before anyone else. I am to worship Jesus, not my life itself nor any part of it.
Furthermore, if I give my heart first and fully to Jesus the more I will naturally begin to follow in His ways. As a result, the aspects of my marriage and wifehood will grow to come more naturally as well.